9:05 p.m.

Monday, Aug. 14, 2006

Not even legumatic

I am currently confident that my choice to bow out in resignation of my current employment position considering everyday since I put in my "two weeks" I've been counting down. This Friday, four more days of at least 8 hours each day, I will no longer be employed as the young counselor and assistant to teacher. I am confident that nearly every working moment this thought will work it's way in my thought patterns, "common Friday, you're so close." Having felt similar thoughts throughout most of my current employed position I have realized that my saying, " I want no more" is indeed a wise choice. When I have mentioned to friends of my decision to quit my current position they've pretty much each said that I didn't appear to like my job at all. However, being friends they've each held their respective tongues. Well enough since I had to realize that when explaining what I did and how my work week has been I usually lacked in the area of positive comments. "Hey," I had to say to myself, "I don't really like my job."

Now, this isn't a "don't like my job" in the sense that 'work sucks.' No, the feeling that I held daily was a discomfort from being on edge for most of the work day, sort of waiting for crap to be flung from nowhere. I mean this almost literaly, although, no crap was actually flung. Think behavioral flinging. Triggering anger even when trying to be polite. These things wear me down quickly. To those who can let it roll off and focus on the necessary task at hand I am thankful for and respecting toward. My search shall continue on.

Onto another form of employment, having learned what I do and do not like from this current position, and maybe I'll find something more suitable. Otherwise, I'll have to try again. Might as well try things out now while I still have some wiggle room.

Also, I'm tired from going to an awesome show last night.

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